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Thursday, March 28, 2013

i have done some deliberating.

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these are the results of my ponderings:

1.) instead of transcribing all of my journals, i'm going to simply scan them (in the best resolution available)

2.) initially, i'll go the route of e-publishing; maybe i can self-publish after all (and use pay-pal to help me sell my wares)

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i am scared about what i have been feeling (or, should i amend, not feeling?) in my heart — has justeas really crippled my capability to show-and-share my love with another person who wants it, that badly?



i don't like this ... emptiness that appears to be growing larger inside of me.

i don't like feeling this vulnerable.
i don't like ... feeling as if i am not in control of my own mind.


i don't like the feeling of finally having no one left in my life, for whom i had felt any sort of strong emotional bond with.
(even though, obviously, my own Love seems mostly wasted on justeas.)

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other than that...it's all the same-old\same-old, over here.

´feeling like a sad sack in general — ´still not knowing what i should do with myself.
´still mad that i am being held to account for something that, for all intents and purposes, i cannot care any less, than i already do, about — Money.

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at some point, i want to raise awareness that there is, quite, a difference between multiple-personality disorder and schizophrenia.


because i wanna label the weather we've had this week as suffering from MPD.


snow and sun and rain, cold and warm and chilly.


3 seasons in such a short amount of time.

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i hate feeling like i'm a fuck-up ..... especially when i have all these people around me who apparently don't believe this is the case.

i hate feeling like i might just be letting a lot of people down, because (for whatever reason) i just can't live up to this "potential" that some attribute to me, but i have yet to grasp.

i hate not knowing what's wrong with me.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

i haven't made a post. . . . .

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. . . . .making fun of all those people who were so dang-convinced the End of The World was coming a few days before christ's mass, have i?


my apologies, thus, for my tardiness.



but, yeah: you stupid mother|fuckers.

why would you think that would happen?



and why would some of you have thought you were in a position to "save yourselves" from the Impending Doom?

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anyway.


i can't wait for Those In Power to get what's coming to them.
i hate this oppression.


i hate this Fear.


i just want to live a peaceful, enjoyable life — not having to work my fingers to the bone, just for a meager existence.



surely That cannot be too much to ask for.


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